What Is Love? Friendship?

What is love? Is it emotion? Is it something that makes us happy? or happier? Is it a good thing? Or is it normal to feel it?

Ps: Actually this is my personal thoughts on love.


I think love is something...complicated...........something that could make someone blind...It is something impenetrable. Something that would make us becomes disparate.
 Love is something that makes us do things that we would have never done before. Yeah, probably weird things. Hahahaha.


I think it makes people become weird but it makes them happy too without them realising it. Love is the single most important emotion one can hold. Whether it's your love for God or your love for another, it's the most powerful, overwhelming and incredible experience. The moment when you realize that you are capable of loving someone else more than you love yourself is quite possibly the most important moment in your life.

There are many types of love which are the love between family, love between friends, love between works, love between pets; and love between partners. There is no easy love. Once you fell in love, the feelings you felt will always remain there, deep in your heart, hiding in the deepest part of your heart, of your mind, asking you to not show it when your heart is broken.

I think the love between parents is the easiest one. But even if you have never said that you love each other, you know that you do, because they are family. Your family. You were always together. But when the time comes, in just in a blink of your eyes, they are gone; they will be gone. Everyone does that. And that makes you feel empty because you were used to seeing them, used to talk to them and now they are gone. You feel like you don't have anyone else besides you, anyone else to lend their shoulders to you when you are sad when you are feeling down and you felt like you are no longer can hold this burden on your shoulders. Until they are gone, you have to cherish them. Be good to them. Be ready so that you could think that you will live a better life; a happier life when they are gone because there is a difference between not being able to live without someone and loving them.  By being able to hold everything, makes you be independent. 


When it comes to love between partners, everyone has their own opinion about this topic. It is a quite sensitive topic. But here it is, this is my opinion about this topic, my thoughts. I think it is weird yet a tremendous thing when you fall in love with someone you barely knew. He or She may not be a stranger to you but you don't a hundred percents know them. It is human nature to get attracted to someone whom you only see when you go outside or to someone whom you already knew forever. And in your deepest mind, you thought that they are your favourite. Your favourite pair of eyes to look into. Your favourite name to see appear on your phone. Your favourite way to spend an afternoon. Your favourite of everything. It is a wonderful feeling you have ever felt. Despite the fact that they have hurt you in any impossible way anyone can't, you will always forgive them. When they give you pain and then they look into your eyes and apologize, it's like the pain was never there. That is what had amazed me in this type of love; partner love. I love it when the love lasts until they are old. This love is dangerous, it could make people better or worse, good to bad, bad to good and happy to sad. It's confusing. Isn't it? But it all happens to every single human in this world. From a stranger who kept staring at you to someone who could make you die from the inside.When they left you alone it felt like the moon split in half and the star crumbled, falling like fireworks into the sea. You watched your world fall apart the day your love left you. Let say that he or she left you because they love someone else, it is one of the hardest things you will ever have to do is to grieve the loss of someone who is still alive. Personally speaking, it takes courage, honesty and good communication to get into this complicated relationship; complicated love.


The love between friends. This is the better love. Everyone must have at least one closest friend or best friend. Why? To share your problems. To have a friend to love you when you forget to love yourself. Friend. They are the one who listens to all of your nasty jokes and stupid thoughts, the one who doesn't judge you for every stupid thing you have done and the one who somehow makes everything all right.I know it is difficult to find a true friend yet an honest friend. But once you do, true friends are never apart, maybe in distance but never in your heart and your mind. Wherever you are, you will always remember the sad and happy memories you created with them. Want to know the worst part of this love? It is when you lose it. There is no other worst feeling than losing your best friends or who you thought they were.But you have to let them go. Everyone who's in your life is meant to be in your journey, but not all of them are meant to stay till the end. Because friendship causes heartbreaks too. It felt weird right to lose someone who's always been there for you in the blink of your eyes. It seems like you were just fine yesterday, but today, everything ends. Everything became bizarre for you. Yesterday was so perfect, but today, everything feels melancholy and unfortunate. You would be thinking if today is the day that you get to forget all the bad things that happened to you. But no! That thing made you stronger. Nevertheless, remember this when you're hurt, sometimes two broken hearts find each other, they protect each other and they love each other for the rest of your lives.

And to my best friends, I just want to thank you for being there for me. Thank you for continuing to be my best friends even though we are miles apart. But most of all, I thank God for allowing this beautiful friendship to grow and bloom into what it is today.

The love between pets. I think everyone needs a pet or more than one pet. There is something special about animals that we can't dismantle. The bond that they created with us is something unusual. Something extraordinary. Yeah, bringing one pet to your house is something new. Something that could change your entire life. It makes you happy. Yes, animals can't talk but you just knew that they love you more than you could have imagined and you love them too even though you don't have normal communication like you did with humans. The animal won't hurt you in a way that you wished it didn't. Even if they did hurt you, it felt like nothing. Thorns may hurt you, men desert you, sunlight turns to fog but you are never friendless ever if you have your pet with you. I love animals. I think I have a cat-shaped hole in my heart that makes me attracted to them. When the world around me is going crazy and I feel like I'm losing faith in humanity, I just have to take one look at my pets; my cats and rabbits to know that the GOOD still exists. My cats are my friends, my partners, my defenders, my cats and at the same time, I am their lives, their love, their leader. They will be mine, faithful and true, to the last beat of their hearts. I owe it to them to be worthy of such devotion. The bonds will never be broken even though they are gone. The bonds will always be there, in your heart. But when they are gone, I could never make a promise saying that 'I'll never get a new pet'. Why? Because I'll find another pet to love and care for. One that needs a home; a comfy home filled with love. Thinking that every time you hug them, your previous pet will feel it. You know that a million words would not bring them back, I know, because I've tried. Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried. But at one time, when they are gone, I  am no longer cried because I know, they have a better place than they were meant to be, and that doesn't mean next to me. One day, I just realised that my little babies are not here with me anymore..

The love between works. Not everyone loves to work. They work not because they love to, but because they had to. But the only way to do great work is to love what you do. Otherwise, it would have been worse. I like to write, I like to photograph the beauty of nature. So I keep writing, making it my work. I have always had a diary since I was a kid. I think I inherited this behaviour from my grandfather, I used to watch him writing everything down in his diary every day, in old Jawi. Of course, I used to sneak a peek into his diaries without him knowing it or maybe he did know or maybe he thought that I didn't understand Jawi. There are no other great feelings than the feeling you have when you're writing something. It's like you're telling your story to something who didn't even exist. I love my work. Ummm, about photography, I tend to take pictures of nature more than portraits. Nature has its own resemblance to happiness when I took it. Not only beautiful but also aesthetic. Everyone should have learned to appreciate their work even though it's tiring.

English Taught Me To Choose My Friend Wisely

Is it weird that you are not good in English?  Is it humiliating if you can't speak English? No, I do not think that you should feel ashamed, humiliated and embarrassed if you are not good in English. But if you do, you should have done some efforts to achieve anything that you want in your life. It is often said that, if you can't and don't speak or understand English, you can't achieve success and your life would be miserable as it always does. 'It is either you masterly good in English or you will ended up living under the bridge.' that was what my teacher told me when I was in primary school. So i guess that makes everyone wants to do good and better in their least favourite subject that is English.Okay, let's get back to the topic.

English taught me to choose my friend wisely. Why did I write that? It is because I always get a good grade in everyone else's least favourite subject that is English which happened to be the apple of my eyes. From primary school until high school; and now a university, I have never gotten myself grades that are lower than B. It is because I got As or Bs instead, in every English examination I had ever taken. It does seem like I am a smart cookie in this subject. Hahaha. My friends used to ask me, 'How did you do it? How did you wrote long essays as if you are writing in Malay?'. Cat got my tongue when they asked that. I don't know what to answer. I have never done a revision before, so how can I answer their questions? I just went to the exam hall and answer the exam paper just like I did in other subjects. One day, I answered them this 'Maybe because I read a lot of books. It doesn't matter what languages they are, I just read.'  It seems unnatural. Isn't it?

When it comes to English class, everyone wants to be NEAR me. Everyone wants to sit next to me. Everyone wants to be in the same group with me. And Everyone wants to be nice to me during that period. I don't even know which one of them that sincerely wanted to befriend me. I only have one closest friend in my class and many closest friends out of my class. So when someone who was barely talking to you in class at the drop of a hat suddenly came and greeted you, it did feel weird. I still remember the time that we were in a group discussion, someone who had never talked to me, talked to me. It is a bizarre thing that the power of English gives people such a huge action towards others. People change when they want something. People can change if when they are weak in certain situations; from bad to good, from indignation to relief and from introverts to extroverts.

Personally speaking, not everyone who goes near you wants to be your friends. Maybe they were there because they want something from you. Maybe they want to take advantages of you. But if you are smart enough, you will know which one is your real friend and which one is your foe. It is all greek to me before, but now as the clock is ticking, I think I could tell the differences between real friends and foes or fake friends. Last but not least, everyone needs to cherish their true friends no matter what happens. It is very difficult to find yourself a best friend but once you do, do not disregard them as they will always be there for you.

Just like I said, I only have one closest friend in my high school class. We were always together. It is quite funny actually. I actually have many friends but not from my class. In every other class, I absolutely have at least two of them in every class. And they are all not from the first class like I was but they were good to me. They were honest. They were....not pretending to be someone else. They were not arrogant. People might think that ' oh why are you being their friends? They are stupid. Their attitudes are not good.'  but they are not like what people think. Even though they are a little slow in their studies, they are decent. Decent enough for me to be their friend. At least they respect their teachers (yeah. maybe not all of them) but everyone needs to chill. Don't be rude. Treat others nicely. Treat them with kindness. Kindness is everything. It is beyond any other good things. It is proof to prove that you're good. These students need to be given attention just like any other students(the smart one) I find it a little humiliating when some of the teachers said something like ' They can not join our visits this weekend. It's because they are from the last class.' Little did I know what was my friend's feeling when she heard that coming from out of that mouth. Everyone could be joining that visit if they've got money to pay. But this is beyond my imagination. I think people need to do good, or at least act nice. Do not say anything rude face to face. Learn to say sorry. Learn to appreciate others. Learn to say good things when you are mad.